whatafunk

I guess I've been in a bit of a funk lately. Not a major funk, but once I emerged even a bit the other day, a funk none the less.

I was cranky, irritable, and genuinely disinterested in just about everything.... bored, waiting for something, but who knows what. I awoke over Thanksgiving I guess. I realized that I am extremely grateful for my family - the man I married and the little girl who we get to raise. I must have realized that really she needs a lot more of my attention and when she gets it, she's a great kid..... go figure. And that man of mine, too. When he gets more of my attention, he's a much more loving person to me, too.

Amazing how a change in attitude can really impact your relationships.

Mommy Burnout

I am experiencing major mommy burn out today. and yesterday. and probably tomorrow. I am tired. my daughter isn't napping. I can do nothing except play with a 2 year old. Not that it's bad, but my brain begins turning to jello around 11 a.m. And then normally, naptime comes and I can do something like a big girl and refresh and be ok for the rest of the day. And then normally, around 6:30 daddy comes in and gives me a big person to talk to and my brain begins to re-calcify and I become an adult again. And then normally, daddy will do bath time. And that gives mommy another moment to be an adult.

October sucks for us in terms of daddy being gone. He's gone all but 7 days. Have I mentioned that he was supposed to only travel about 50% of the time? Well.... 50% turned to 75% and 75% is turning into 90%. Did I mention that this sucks? Not to be a debbi downer, but if I wanted to be a single parent, I probably could have been. And it will get better for a little bit and then we'll probably have another deployment..... and be in a foreign country where no one will be visiting us........ yeah, I guess that probably wasn't the best idea as a first choice - and there's always the fact the Army does what the Army wants with your life...... so we could end up at Ft. Riley.....

Anyway.... burned out. Need something. Just not sure what it is.

personal responsibility..... a tirade....

Ok..... so apparently people who try to do the right thing are in the minority these days. I am getting a little fed up with people who EXPECT things for FREE - like healthcare, expensive cars, nice houses, decent clothing, high paying jobs, and not have to work for them like the rest of us. Now, I agree that some things could be cheaper (like having babies is kind of expensive) BUT, if anyone thinks they NEED a 5,000 square foot house, or an Escalade or a Lexus or whatever....... I mean please.

I am only thinking about this right now because our former tenants (who until we settle in court will remain nameless and for the time being will be referred to as the "Inconsiderates") are refusing to pay for damages they made on our property. We have receipts, photos, etc. and they are trying to say that because they failed to give our property manager the correct address, that our property manager acted in poor faith because they didn't receive their deposit letter within 30 days of vacating the property. absolute BS. I know it was sent on August 14. They obviously destroyed our house and now are refusing to pay..... well..... we will go to court and we will assess a judgement against them..... and we can wait it out patiently.

But I am so sick of people who try to take advantage of others. And this guy is an Army Officer - certainly not conduct becoming an officer if you ask me.....

Missing my hubby

So.... 2 weeks ago I had to go to North Carolina to check on the rental house. Went overnight with MCR. Happened to be gone one of the nights PJR was actually home. Then, he left again. He came home on Saturday and all three of us overnighted to NC to work on the house. Then.... I left for Florida with MCR. He was gone Thursday, we all got home on Friday for a blissful 36 hours together and he's off again until late Friday. His parents come on Friday to celebrate little miss MCR's 2nd birthday and then he'll be home for a couple days. Sounds crazy, doesn't it? It's almost like having him deployed.... we were both a little sad that he had to go away again this morning as he was walking out the door..... 5 more years and maybe he'll retire and become a civilian!

On a happy note - he did make the "cut" for O6 (Lt. Colonel) and we are currently making our choices in location for a battalion command. I told him my top 3 - Italy, Hawaii and back to ft. Bragg. I don't think his top 3 are the same - probably Ft. Stewart (Savannah, GA), Ft. Bragg (North Carolina) or Ft. Lewis (Tacoma, WA). I won't know until this weekend what he's thinking since he's off on the other side of the world right now - being my hero. :)

Holy Cow....

so....toddlerhood is a busy busy time in my life. We spend our days making water balloons, going to the grocery store or Target or gymboree for play or music or Mother's Day out or on a play date or something almost every day. I wonder sometimes if we should just stay home and do nothing and enjoy it. sometimes I feel guilty because we are always on the go..... I can't even imagine how busy we'll be when she's a little older and doing more organized activities.....

On a happy note - we are officially trying for baby #2! I broke down and purchased an ovulation kit last month. Why? Well..... let's just say until this month I had no idea about my "mucus cycle" and thought I was ovulated 48 hours before I am..... anyway, with a small window of opportunity - and my husband's travel schedule.... yes, I'll be disappointed if we aren't pregnant next month - but I at least feel sort of empowered to time it correctly. As in with the little bambina - ultimately it is up to God. If he feels that we are ready for another, He'll give us one. If not, I adore the one I have and will continue to spoil the heck out of her! :)

MAJOR Inspiration

So, I've spent inordinate amounts of time recently "catching up" with my friends on Facebook. Can I just say that reading about them, seeing pictures, etc. makes me wonder where the time has gone.....

Someone posted a picture of me from I guess middle school, I was making faces at the camera with another girl who I probably haven't seen since.

More to come, I think I can find a picture of elementary school to scan in and upload....

Trying to sell our house....

So yesterday I got an email from our tenant stating that she is suddenly now uncomfortable with showing our house. I assured her in December, January and February that we didn't expect it to be a model home or staged in any way and she was perfectly fine with it. Now, I guess her husband is deployed, she has 5 kids and it's overwhelming......

You know, I understand the overwhelmed feeling of having your husband deploy. Everything around you is magnified and blown up almost out of proportion. But she didn't mention any of this to me when we talked.... AND he just asked to have a ham radio tower mounted on the house about a month ago. Weird......

I just wish she had been honest with me about her feelings up front. It would have prevented me and the hubby from signing all those papers with our realtor.